My Journey to Fitness - Update

Hey guys, I’m back with my weight loss update. I wasn’t feeling ok for the last few weeks due to my recent relationship issues, but yeah I’m back – still strong and fighting.

So, I went to the company clinic again today with a good friend of mine to see if there’s some changes on my weight. And I am so happy to tell you that from 63kg last April11, I am now at 58kg! I am feeling great! I know that I just lost a couple of  kilo since April 22 but I am still thankful and happy to see the progress. It could have been better if I am still doing Casey Ho’s blogilates. I will doing those next week. I should have posted some pictures last Aprill 11 so you guys can see the difference.

I can now wear my old jeans and shirts, shorts and swimsuit. Haha :) so yay!

Thank you for using our health tool. You gave the following information:

•             Height: 5 feet and 2 inches.

•             Weight: 128 lbs (58 kg)

•             Sex: Female

Your Body Mass Index (BMI) is 23.4 (Overweight).

Your ideal body weight is 101-125 pounds (45.9-56.8 kg). This will give you a BMI between 18.5 and 22.9, the normal range of BMI for Filipinos.

Your estimated daily caloric requirement is 1313-1625 calories. Taking this amount of calories will bring your weight within your ideal body weight range.

I am on the right track, I’ll just have to stick with my diet plan and of course start doing those exercises again. Way to go, Ash. You can do it. Cheers to a healthier and a sexier me :))

Let God heal my heart.

April’s been a challenge. I am going through a lot lately. I feel trapped, unloved, taken for granted and unappreciated. Our one and a half year has ended exactly one month after our Cebu trip. We’re actually having lots of issue the past few months and we thought that going to Cebu could at least help us save the relationship, but yeah, as they say, “all good things must come to an end”.

That phrase sucks, don’t you think? Hahaha! I mean, why do bad things happen to good people. Fine, I’m that good, but I am not that bad either!  Please blame me not, I am in the phase where my thoughts are incoherent and my reasoning isn’t logical, I’d say.  I  find myself crying/sobbing at night or while travelling to and from the office. It was heavy, chest heaving and glassy foggy cry.  I had a week where I act like a zombie.

I am still lucky though that I have a sister who understands me, and some friends who I can talk to and encourage me that life must go on, that I can make it, that I am young and pretty and bright. But those words aren’t   matching on what I thought of myself – I care and love too much. I wasn’t good enough. I wasn’t perfect. People seem to get tired of me – coz I am boring. I was thinking, maybe because I am getting fat, or perhaps I am not pretty, I might be too   giving that I forgot to leave something for myself. I don’t know. This isn’t me.

I know this is the best time to fill the void in me. I have more time for myself.

This is another kind of heart break.  :( I don’t know. Life’s being too hard for me. I am tired. I need to rest, but I am not gonna quit.

Ash B. ❤