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"Ever since I was a little kid, I've thought that there was something noble

and mysterious about writing, about the people who could do it well, who could create

a world as if they were little gods or sorcerers. All my life I've felt that there was

something magical about people who could get into other people's minds and skin,

who could take people like me out of ourselves and then take us back to ourselves.

And you know what? I still do." — Anne Lamott, Bird by Bird

Updating...

Hey lovely people, it's been a while-- and yes, im still alive.  I've been really busy for the past few months, dealing with some work metrics and scorecard, but i'm still breathing--barely, though. 

I'm gonna try more about my life and fun activities soon, so please dont remove me on your blog list. 

Thank you!

xoxo
Ash

Home Alone

What do you like most about being alive? I think I would choose cats, holding hands and hugs. :)

Home alone on a lazy Sunday, hence this picture. Have a great weekend folks!

xx
Ash

Weekend Date :)

I was lucky-- enough to have a weekend off last week. Just perfect to meet my 2 lovely girlfriends Jackie and Mafe. It has been really really exhausting week, and I deserve this off. Mind you, we always have a 6day sched! --Loser:I know.

Call time was around 12:30-1:00pm, but we end up meeting around 230pm. Good job! I met them in Burgoo at the Gateway Mall. They're wearing the sweetest smile when they saw me coming in. Oh how I.miss these gals.

Twas a great time, indeed. I miss laughing hysterically, literally! Sadly, Mafe has to go after our late lunch date as she need to catch some sleep before going back to work later that day.

I've been wanting to watch Piolo's movie since the 12th, but never got a chance until that day.

The movie's great. Very realistic, heartbreaking, depressing, eye-opener, I love everything about it.

"How do I unlove you?"

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Give Love on 021414

To the beautiful souls who gave us flowers, chocolates and donuts last Valentine's thank you sooooo much.

I don't have any dates or whatever but it made me beam still knowing that I have great people around me.

Had a great lunch too with Cid and Monjh at Sbarro- carbs overload :))

I'm not really a fan of valentine's but I appreciate the people who gave their time to spend it with me :) You guys are awesome.

“Lately I’ve been thinking about who I want to love, and how I want to love, and why I want to love the way I want to love, and what I need to learn to love that way, and how I need to become to become the kind of love I want to be. And when I break it all down, when I whittle it into a single breath, it essentially comes out like this: before I die, I want to be somebody’s favorite hiding place, the place they can put everything they need to survive, every secret, every solitude, every nervous prayer, and be absolutely certain I will keep it safe. I will keep it safe." - Andrea Gibson

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under the weather :|

It has been an utterly exhausting week, i must say. Work's a little stiff. Our schedule changes everyday and rest days varies weekly.

I was feeling nauseaus and vomitted several times last Friday, not to mention the unbearable pain in my stomach. Ive prepared my stuff for another 6day work again, but this weird feeling is hauntibg me and i was a little worried, so we decided to hop into the hospital. Initially, we were just there for consultation and to get proper medications but after couple of hours waiting for the result of my blood and urine test inside the emergency room, I was advised that I need to get admitted. My WBC soared high and my potassium went agressively low. I was at Calamba Doctors from 630pm, was given a shot of Plasil and few other drugs to make me feel better. Oh how I hate needles, that's effin crazy. I know I'm not a kid anymore to have this kinda feeling, but geez, I just can't fake it, I look like a 5year old girl pleading. Hahaha! I know its kinda crazy and embarrasing. 

The antibiotics flowed painfully into my little veins. It really hurts. I stayed at the hospital for 4 days, eating nothing but soup and steamed fish/chicken and few blanched veggies. Food's fine, i'd say but of course I wanna eat something that would satisfy my crazy palate. :))

I felt extra grateful for having my sister and mum stayed beside me. Sister even took a day off to give me a hand and to process all the necessary papers needed. My old chums and new found friends never fails to give me a ring to check how am I feeling. Thank you guys for all the "get well soon" messages. Means a lot :)

I was advised to take a rest for few more days. I know that I have to rest as much as I can as my body needs time to recover. Oh by the way, the doctor at the ER's a cutie. Lol

Im feeling grand, hence this post. I'll try to be on track again.

Salud√

xx
Ash

2013 Timeline :)

Dear 2013,

Twas a roller coaster ride. You made me smile, laugh, cry, fall in love at the same time. You've given me much of love yet you broke my heart so bad. At the start of the year, things felt steady for the 1st few months, but guess what, it wasn't! (Spoiler Alert!) I'm not going to sugarcoat it because you didn't sugarcoat any experience you threw my way. As a matter of fact, I'm rather suspicious that your entire goal wasn't to try but to break my spirit. You were a real dozy, you know that? I've faced far more changes  and challenges than I'd ever expected. 

January was one of the best months, I'd say. I've spent my New Year with my EarthLink Business Folks.  Macau and Hong Kong Trip. Euphoria. Sigh. Memories. It was nearly perfect. 

What Ive Learned:

Love too much: There is no such thing. The people you care about should always feel as if you love them.

HongKong Disneyland

Ruins Of St. Paul Macau

February was full of love. I've spent the entire month with crazy messages, skype dates, cute emails and priceless overseas calls. 

What Ive Learned:

Love should be two separate people who don't lose themselves in each other—don't become one entirely different person, but simply the same two people at their very love-filled best. ❤

March- more skype date with my favorite person on earth. Hearing his voice and seeing him online makes me forget that we're 6932.96 miles apart. He's the risk I will always take.

What Ive Learned:

Love is when you're having the worst day, but when you look at him/her all the pain goes away.

April-- i soaked up life away from the hustle and bustle of the metro, spending nearly all my free time at the beach and suburbs.  Traveled and enjoyed the islands of Padre Burgos and fall inlove with its beautiful beaches-- Borawan and Dampalitan Islands.  

What Ive learned? 
Don't waste the sun: Get outside and soak it in.It's like a magnetic attraction that will lift your spirits immediately. 

May- another month spent on the beach. Went back to Puerto Galera as I usually do every year with my sister and friends. And yes, it's my boyfriend's birth month too. :) 

What I've Learned: 
Push yourself to work. Push yourself to relax. Travel more, have fun, be wise and fall in love.

June - With the summer fading, I decided to quit my job due to lame reasons. LOL :)) Despedida parties, Dinner with friends, Weekend full of Music and Fun. etc. Hosted a debut party, met old good friends. 

What I've Learned.
As much as you'd like it to, the right decision won't just fall into your lap. Always RETHINK.

July was my last month with Aegis after 5 long years. My heart was battling with my mind. Tough decision, I'd say. It was 5 good years Aegis. 

What Ive Learned:
It's ok to feel sad,it's ok to feel nostalgic and it's okay to sink into those melancholy feelings every once in a while. That's life.

August oh my dear August, my birth-month. I've spent much of this time with my family and friends. Visited Nuvali for the 1st time and enjoyed the beauty of nature. 

What I've Learned: 

When negativity hits you, go home and let yourself sit there for however long you need until things are okay again.

Along Nuvali

September offered me a new job (A very challenging job!) after a month long vacation -Met new cool and gay friends. Learned a lotta new things. Ended up drinking every weekend and eating after shift. 

What I've Learned: 

A career does not define you, and your dreams are not set in stone. Everything is perpetually changing. And so are God's plans for us.

Late Lunch with 13.9.1 Folks

October- So many friends were made. New mood settled in the air and yes, skype date with my boyfriend. 
What I've Learned:
Life is short-- make friends and laugh hard!!

November made us so proud as we graduated from our 60 days of classroom training! More certifications to follow. LOL :) Got few starbucks gift cert from our Transition Advocates which eventually helped me get my 2014 Starbucks planner. Yey! It was my 1st time to try Sisha and it was good, not to mention those 'cough' moments. But it was really really good, and yes I wont forget my favorite margarita. Cheers

What I've Learned:
Take pride in your career, and know that everyone has something to teach you. Ask questions, stay curious, and learn as much as you can about anything and everything — then share it.

Sisha Certification. LOL

Thanks Gelo, Rex and Kirsey

December was a mess. You're a box of surprises! You were half terrible, dont you know that? Most spent in tears and a lot of Margaritas . I've lost the man i love the most. No warning. No explanation. No emails, no text messages, no facebook messages, no phonecalls, no viber messages. Nothing.  Hell. It's December, this is supposed to be a happy month. I don't know what happened to us. No closure, I was just left hanging. Or maybe I am just pretending that I still have him. I cried for days. Spent 31 days with friends, attending Christmas Gatherings, Dinner and after shift coffee date with friends. 

What Ive Learned:
Some things, and some relationships, won't go your way. Life is a lesson in letting go.

It's been (another) busy, special year filled with its fair share of surprises and fears, highlights and challenges. 2013, thank you for all the smiles, laughs, tears, success, failures, heartaches, new friends and blessings. Thanks for the joyful spirit and a thankful heart. Goodbye 2013, thanks for the memories. I aint gonna miss you, but thanks a bunch! 

Here's to embracing what's to come in 2014 — happy New Year to you and yours!

Happy New Year, still :-*

xoxo
Ash