Midnight Musing.

Today I...

...feel I could blow up any second
...had a rough,yes, a very ROUGH day
...am ticking like a bomb
...am extremely DISAPPOINTED!
...feel being neglected, rejected and taken for granted
...want to cry---a good cry.

But then...
I realize that there are other people in the same world I live in that have billions of things bothering them-- moments in their days could be life threatening, other people hurt more than I do. 

Therefore...
I should be thankful for every moment I take a breath of air.
I should be more optimistic about life
I should be grateful for every moment in my life- whether good or bad

Oh life! 
I just wish that everything would go back to the way it was.
I wish there's such thing as happily ever after.

Semper Fidelis,
Ash

Torn

Lately, I've been a little lonely and it kind of sucks! I have been somewhat busy with work and such but I don't know.  Yeah, I have friends and family to fill the spaces where you are not- but sometimes I wish you'd fill them. I want everything to be okay, and I want to work it out. I'm afraid to talk to you. :/ Alright, I'm not gonna lie -- my heart's a little torn up. I dont feel like giving you time, it's all you've gotten lately. I don't know. I wish you'd tell me more-- dont leave me in the dark,leave me out of the loop. Sometimes I get so frustrated at you.I'm so tired of the curveballs you've been throwing me.

On a happy note,i'm super duper excited for this coming weeks.. yep WEEKS! Te he!  I just cant wait to go to the beach again- that would be a wonderful escape. I just hope that the weather will be a little considerate [puhleaseeee!!] ..lol! My weekends will be a somehow busy with some plans/itineraries, I guess that would help me map out my life ..

I hope everyone is having a wonderful weekend. :) Thanks for dropping by lovelies. Love love love!


Semper Fidelis,
Ash