Judge Me Not.

Today, I am feeling sad and melancholy. With all the pains and heartaches I am having/dealing with for the past half a year, I'd say that my heart's badly broken. Don't know if this will be fixed and how it'll be fixed. But hey I am always hopeful. I am always trying to keep my head above the waters.

When others misjudge you, it tears every fiber of your being apart. They will pass judgment on you for something they do not even know or understand. They will pass judgment on you based on how they perceive things. As they say, "life is unfair." People, not life, are unfair.

It's natural to pass judgment on others because that's what humans do. We make snap judgments without knowing the true score. How will you know the entire story of the book if you only skim it and never finish it? Is chapter 1 sufficient to understand the entire story? That's how we are, most of the time. And this is especially disappointing when you have high expectations for that person. Just when you thought they'd be your shield against this world of frailty and apathy, you'll find that they're the ones who'll put a bullet in your head or an arrow in your chest.  They will not see the good in you, and they will forget everything good about you—your wit and humor, your beautiful mind and loving soul—but they will always remember your flaws and shortcomings.

We'll all make stupid decisions, hurt people we care about, say things we'll regret later, and push too hard to get our way. If you tell me you haven't done any of these things, you're lying to me and to yourself. If you still insist, please tell me "how to be you po?!"

It's nice to have friends; who doesn't? Friends are there to keep us sane, to guide us, and to help us grow as individuals. Friends should be there to support or assist you in repairing a broken relationship, not to wreck or ruin it. If that 'friend' is already interfering in your relationship, you should be wary. And that friend should be aware of her own limits. However, as the old saying goes, "it takes two to tango."

I am fortunate to have friends who are truly amazing and kind. Friends who will laugh with me rather than at me. Friends who will remove the bullet from my head. Friends who understand me and will hug me so tightly.

I'm getting rid of the toxic people in my life. I want to be surrounded by people who love unconditionally and are willing to share their lives with me. Those who can enlighten my heart and soul. I'm gonna live my life the way i want it to be.

Lovelies, let’s spread love. Sorry if i rant. Can't help it.

Ash B. ❤