"So come with me,
where dreams are born, and time is never planned. Just think of happy things,
and your heart will fly on wings, forever, in Never Never Land."
----Peter Pan.
I love Peter Pan; maybe
because I want to fly too, or because I love adventure, or simply because I want
to stay young.
Apart the yearning to look
young is the fervor to hold the innocence we once stick into—those days when we
believed that life is beautiful. Those days when we never thought that our
playing field will soon be a battleground. Well, no one ever told us that
though -- everyone has allowed us to enjoy and then soon after the pleasure was
the surprises of seeing the astonishing part of life—Failures, world-weariness,
and nuisance do exist. It is never easy to chase a dream unlike imagined.
When I was 14, I always
wanted to get older. I want to be 18. I thought that it will give me more
freedom, more choices, more fun—but I never thought that it would also give me
more responsibilities. And now that my birthday has come ONCE again, I've
realized a lot of things. Our life doesn't have rewind or a pause button--we
can never turn back time.
Growing up, at times, is
something we wish we can get rid of. There comes a time when we wanted to go
back to the unhindered world we once enjoyed during our early days. We
sometimes long for those years when we know nothing about fear, when we ask
instead of we search for an answer, when the only task that tired us was to
arrange our toys in a shelf. It was a less-troubled world. We are free of
responsibilities, duties, and obligations.
The magic word we all want to hear during our birthdays is “make a wish!”. And today as I close my eyes and wish, I have one thing in
mind--to stay young. I guess this the first thing we could ever wish for when
our hearts are broken and busted, whenever we are blamed, when we are
discouraged by life, when we are disappointed by our shattered dream, and
whenever we find ourselves astray amidst of nowhere.
I want to stay young not
because I'm afraid of wrinkles, well in a way yes, I hate wrinkles but what I
am afraid of is not being able to do the things I used to do as a young person.
I still want to eat as much
ice cream or sweets without worrying gaining weight. I still want to stay up
late without feeling too tired in the morning. I still want to cry like a baby
whenever I get too frustrated.
The idea of flying away to
a magical world with Peter Pan is a fantasy of many because everyone wanted to
stay young. Despite my envy to him for he is embracing a world of fun, I
don’t wanna live in NeverLand. Ha! Now you find it contradicting, right? I
wanted some of the things Peter does not want. I want to be one responsible
grown-up, I want a job, and I want a relationship. Peter pan might embrace the
joy and wonder of being young but has lost sight of the purpose—that part, I do
not want to happen in my life.
Everyone has a purpose and
choice. I want to respect them whatever it may be. I have my own and my purpose
in life is to grow up and conquer life. I love Peter Pan but I would still
choose to be ME.
Peter Pan is not going to
fly to my window and will not take me to Never Land. If he will, I will pay a
visit into his world, just to experience a different adventure, but I will ask
him to take me back to my own real world. I just want to experience how it
feels to be free.
"Second to the right,
and straight on till morning." --- Peter Pan
xx
Ash
