My FAT self

It’s been a while since I visited this blog, so I am sorry if I haven’t updated this lately. Well, I’m not sure if I have a reader/follower, so whatever.  I've noticed that I have a number of blog posts sitting in my drafts – Calaguas Summer Escapade, Boracay Experience, Love advice, diet and exercise etc.  And speaking of diet and exercise, I guess I got to start with the latter.

I’ve been wanting to write something about my love-hate relationship with food and how my weight gained terrifically, but I always end up clearing off the drafts. So today, I decided to totally share what I think and feel about my almost-michelin-like body. Yes, I am fat and I’m not loving it. My normal weight is between 49-53kgs. Last November 2014, my weight soared awfully high to 57kg and as of this writing, it went up to 60-freakin-kgs! Yes, I know, how did I let this happen to me, to my body? I don’t have anything against fat or chubby people. This is all about me- my feelings because it’s a day after day challenge for me to look for a dress, a blouse, a simple shirt, a pants or shorts, sigh! Everything seems to be too small for me. I’ve been trying to go on a  diet- not eating rice for a week, just bread and fruits which I believe is really helpful, but every weekend, I can’t say no to rice and pork or any meats served on our dining table. I can’t resist the temptation. The more I tried not to say yes to those yummy food, the more I crave in. *Sigh. I lack discipline. I exercise ONLY if I want to. Pilates really helps, but I got too lazy and busy, alright, just plain lazy! I am really frustrated that I am this big now.

I can’t enjoy going to the beach because I feel like the swimsuit doesn’t fit me well or better say, the swimsuit doesn't look good on me. I felt bad seeing other ladies on their bikini walking pompously at the beach, flaunting their sexy flawless body while I am on my swimsuit, covered with shorts and crocheted blouse and wrapped with a shawl. Can you imagine that? I was covering my fat self because I am ashamed how fat I am and scared that people will boo me in their minds. I know I know, I shouldn’t hate my body. I should have taken good care of myself if I want to feel better. But please, please don’t blame me that I am feeling this way. I just really felt frustrated about this ugh body! And yes, I only have few pants left – yes, I do have a lot of jeans but I can only wear 2 of them. Hear that? 2 of out 12 jeans? I don’t want to buy new not because I am being so frugal, but I want to challenge myself that I can still wear those jeans.  

So, I am giving myself 3-4 months to lose weight. And my goal? That’s 53kgs again. Yes, that may sound too unreal but, that’s a challenge that I need to face. Whatever the result is, I’ll be happy. So, cheers to a sexier and healthier me! *crossing my fat fingers.

Xoxo

Ash

Experiencing Laiya

Summer is here—the bluest sky, most people's bikini-ready bodies (except mine), the flowers in full bloom, the scorching heat of the sun, that mouth-watering water melon and mangoes, who wouldn't love summer and the postcard-perfect beaches? Summer means reunions, get-aways with family and friends, more time with the kids, and, of course, F-U-N.

We went to Batangas last Saturday (Black Saturday). It was like a bolt from the blue escape. We were singing 90's Overdrive on the way to Batangas! 

It was a three-hour drive, and when I saw the hotel from afar, I was truly awestruck by its grandeur. I was expecting a simple beach resort, but this one is awe inspiring. The expansive entrance to the Estrellas de Mendoza resort and hotel welcomed us. I was the happiest kid that day, as we sat under the huge umbrella near the infinity pool while waiting for our check-in time. It was a beautiful Saturday afternoon, and the setting is perfect for a romantic getaway or family gatherings. This is an idyllic abode for a summer romance, I’d say. I prefer less-crowded beaches/resorts because I want to enjoy the tranquility of the location and take a break from the hustle and bustle of the city.

Beautiful!

View from our Room

We had dinner on the beach, and I chose grilled liempo and baby back ribs. The food is excellent, and the setting is ideal – I can feel the chilly wind with its salty sea breeze; that night was truly romantic. After dinner, we went for a walk along the beach and decided to lie on the sand like in the romantic movies, hahaha—but there were no stars that night, but there were fireworks.

We set our alarm for 05:30am the next morning so that we could go to the beach and possibly collect some shells. Unfortunately, there aren't any.  So we just grabbed our camera and took some pics and videos instead. 

We decided to eat breakfast around 8 a.m., which was already included in our reservation. I got watermelon and other fruits (except pineapple), an egg, fried rice, tocino, tapa, congee, and a lot more.  

We checked out around 2pm, and he told me he wanted Lomi. I had no idea he had already googled the famous lomi house in Batangas. I'm not a lomi/pancit fan, but we wanted to try it, so we went to Liam's Lomi Haus. We ordered lechon and lomi pancit guisado. The place is simple, but the pancit and lomi are delicious; we even ordered pancit sa bilao as a pasalubong.

Lomi :)

It was one of the happiest days of my life-- no stress.

 

** You can visit their website for rates and more info. http://estrellasdemendoza.wix.com/estrellasdemendoza

xoxo
Ash